a simple mixed feelings of everyday things
[12:49 PM on Wednesday, January 31, 2007 ] ok, this is a time to satisfy millions of dear readers out there who is so looking forward for updates. so here we go~!
as nothing much is going on lately, nothing happening of that sort. ME have been going home past 12, or the next morning almost everyday to eat supper and still managed to wake up for school the next day. and the result of that, 62kg.
if i lie to myself, im fit and strong and muscular and macho!
but the truth is, im getting heavier, not good.
and the unbelievable truth is, im still skinny. am i? you hear good old mrs chen complaining all the time. "eat so much, still so skinny, bones only. i think all the fats goes into your bum"
oh well.. i rather all my fats goes into my bum than anywhere else. =D
these few days plenty of things happened, which none of it is my business. but somehow it made me exercise my brain to 'think' abit, if that's what you call?
like, everyone is sick or injured these few days.
ME caught a runny nose
adrian caught a more serious runny nose
i brought tissues
he brought none
so he took all my tissue papers
and i have nothing left.
meaning, those who have a more serious case of runny nose takes it all?
whatever nonsense that is, i just wanna say to everyone. get well soon! drink more water if you're sick like me and adrian. if you're injured, stretch ABIT here and there la.
and i dont knw why am i drooling like a baby whenever i play with my saliva.
my saliva feels very watery.
maybe... because of the runny nose....
FOLLOWING ARE CONTROVERSIAL
-read it at your own risk
just when i wonder why secular relationship flourishes.
a few of my friends are having problems right now.
some breaking up, some already broke up.
the reasons are simple. they are angry with each other
i shall not take sides, some are indeed in wrong.
however, is it so serious to break the relationship up?
maybe in their case.
maybe they will be happier after breaking up.
but just want to say, you may start to cherish that person more after that.
ops. i've said too much.
bye! if got problem with anything i've mentioned, come find me in school!!
finally, to yuan. i DONT miss you.. nananipoopoo. haha..
to sebas, i'll continue to slap you. =D
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a funeral for a friend
[1:00 AM on Thursday, January 25, 2007 ] a friend of mine had just passed away.
it made me realised how life can be so fragile, so unpredictable.
this week i see you, the next you're gone.
and i've yet to say goodbye.
you are really missed.
and what if
we never get to say sorry for the things you've done to others?
we never get to say how much that others mean to us?
we never get to give thanks to others?
we never get to do some nice things for others?
we never get to make peace after a fight?
we never get to spend that last moment with others?
we never get to just even say 'i love you' to your loved ones?
live your everyday like the last.
to all who reads this,
im sorry for the bad things i may have done to you. you all means alot to me, you guys made me happy and changed my life, really. thank you for everything! i may not have done lots of nice things to all of you, but i'll treat you guys better now. haha. i hope to spend more time with all of you, to have fun and all that.
to my family and my 'family', i love you.
despite naggin at me,
discouraging me to take up bike,
and scold me for coming home late,
and etc.
thanks for taking care of me,
got me out of drinking,
waking me up every morning,
making me food when im hungry,
ps. i love everyone in rp too!
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[10:31 AM on Monday, January 22, 2007 ] yesterday, everything's changed
and
felt much better
and
happier
and
never had this feeling to say this for awhile, school is fun! =)
thank you, Jesus!
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No one else knows
[10:57 PM on Thursday, January 18, 2007 ] My world is closing in
On the inside but I'm not showing it
And all I am is crying out
I hold it in and fake the smiles
'Til I'm broken, I'm broken
Only One could understand
And only One can hold the hand
Of the broken, of the broken
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms again
I need no explanation
Of "Why me?"
I just need confirmation
When only You could understand
The emptiness inside my head
I am falling, I'm falling
I'm falling down upon my knees
To find the One who gives me peace
I am flying, Lord I'm flying
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms again
And I come to You in search of faith
'Cause I can't see beyond this place
Oh You are God and I am man
So I leave it in Your hands
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
When no one else knows how I feel
Your love for me is proven real
When no one else cares where I've been
You run to me with outstretched hands
And You hold me in Your arms
Oh how You hold me in Your arms
I know that You hold me in your arms again
ok, so now everyone knows
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ans: how far ah?
[3:38 PM on Friday, January 12, 2007 ] click here
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how far ah?
[1:14 PM on Wednesday, January 10, 2007 ] kah leong: do you love God?
me: yar
kah leong: bang!
it reminds me of this story of this girl somewhere on the other side of the earth who died because she did NOT deny Jesus Christ. which tells me, how far would you go loving and standing up for God?
life knowing God aint gonna be easy sometimes, but its still much better than not knowing God. if i didnt come to know God and stuffs about christianity, i would seriously be better off dead. i dare to say my life have really changed after knowing God. and i have never regret my decision for raising my hand up when the pastor asked who wants to recieve Jesus into their life, thou its kinda paiseh to go up to the stage there and pray in front of so many strangers.
back to life serving God.
how far would you go?
i heard of people who suffered because they are christian. LONG LONG time ago and long time ago and now. and well, in most of the stories, they ended up dead while some died of old age somewhere. i asked myself the same thing. what i've suffered is nothing compared to life and death and i already feel half dead. then, how far would i go?
if kah leong really pointed a gun that he bought in malaysia at me, wanted to kill me because i disturb su hsing and asked me that question. how would i answer? right now, i would say yea! come get some! but if life is good, so good that you cant stop laughing till you got muscle cramp like how adam did, laughing from kitkats to matchsticks. would you still stand up for God?
maybe not say get killed la, but lets say simple things like going for church, help church friends out in difficulty, or even thinking straight when your cant. how far would you go?
maybe...
maybe going to the jungle to preach to the tribesman with the bible in 1 hand and a spear in another. ROARR!!!
i've found out something!
burying yourself in work and games are temporary solutions to all your problem.
burying yourself in prayers works!
dont gimme that look, sebas. it really works!!
huey yuan, i know your my #1 fan. always read my blog, here's something for you.
dont anyhow change my msn nick k! ewww.. hahah
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chapter 2
[1:55 PM on Monday, January 08, 2007 ] and school started.
same church, same cell group, same friends, same classt, same team, same facilitators but different lifestyle from now on. not something that i would really look forward to, but that's just things that you have to face it in life.
i thank God for sending me good friends and everyone who are there for me when im down. people, you know who you are. thank you for being there. i'll be ok, i wont do silly things and let you guys down. =)
to pong, i updated already la! and dont be so dao in school can!? haha
to cheryl, my mom's birthday is this sat, sorry i cant be there for yours. =p
to tim, update lehh!!
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